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254 days I was institutionalized.

I had 21 years of experience and my only question, the only thing I use to ask myself as a little kid was 'what is life?', it sure sounds lame and childish but it's not how one can let down something and move on. A crazy weird child and his memories and that is what made him different with nothing good but I have never complained. I'm a curious case. Sometimes it's hard to bear a surprise when sometimes people say surprise and then they wait for my reaction while my only surprise is the word 'surprise'. The funny thing is that there is no book that teaches you about it. You can learn or you can forget.

Maybe I know deep down in my soul somewhere that love never existed but it was until now. I have finally found, learned, understood and now I believe. This is life and its how we know it, at least its how I have learned. Even god cried when heaven's rained and then he swore he would never do something like that again. Even god has a heart. We all have a heart, we just gota learn how to use it.

Thank you Dominus for this life and all my answers that you never answered but made me feel.