My Soul Bleeds
Someone whom you think your soul mate, walks into your life,
Friendship grows and trust develops, through all toil and strife,
Ever closer, growing fonder, on them you depend,
Then suddenly and without warning, trust is brought to end.
You find they've lied, you find they've broken all the trust you had,
So what to do when you still love them and things turn so bad?
Cry a tear, no, I cried thousands, tried to understand,
Couldn't think that this was real, it was so underhand.
In a daze, I sat an pondered all that had been said,
Surely this could not have happened, it was in my head.
Friends all told me I should leave him, that he'd always hurt,
But I couldn't walk away. He'd have to dish the dirt.
Weeks rolled by, my head was reeling from the stories told,
Placing pieces in the jigsaw, quickly growing old,
Thinking of the times he'd said he couldn't love again,
For if once more he was let down, he would feel the pain.
So, my heart says if this reason really is the rhyme,
Why do I feel that I'm outside looking in each time?
Why do all his friends know secrets that aren't told to me,
Is it that he's hiding something, not for me to see?
Why is it he thinks I should stay out here in the cold,
Why is it he had to do this... why was I not told?
Communication now is broken, not even a word
Except to scold me and to run before he can be heard.
Why with others does he taunt me, is this just a test,
Hoping that I can stop loving he whom I love best?
I guess again I have to sit and wonder why he erred,
To wonder whether others let him down and made him scared
Or was it always his fault that women walked away?
Was it him who let his loves down , he would never say.
I vowed my life to this one man and ever that will stand,
He's never told me it was over, pretended he was grand,
Faultless man, he said he needed time to have a think,
I gave him space, I gave him time and never did he blink,
He just went out and punished me with his thoughtless deeds
Two years of hurting passed now, and here my soul, it bleeds.
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