You want to stop moving time.You are searching for someone to do something, to stop the time..but it is life and it will continue, it will keep moving...you are going with time and you have to learn from it, could be good or bad..Choice is yours..you are ignoring every single thing but deep inside you have strong hope which will never stop, never ever...
just do the things and don't ever expect because if you are expecting you will definitely hurt, it might be good for you but it will hurt and you can't stop hurting from this..just learn good things from it..
This is the time to do things for your loving ones...because they love you and they really care for you..so give them as much as possible. May be it will help you feel better..
may Allah bless you all..
lv Farhat..