Thursday 28th january 2010

Thursday 28th january 2010

I decided i’ll walk a little on my way back home and i was just listening music on my ipod and at about 9:30 i was totally lost in the moment, cold night, moon under clouds, everything perfect. I was just couple blocks away from my home when i saw not one, not two but six puppies, cutest and most amazingly innocent of all the stray dogs i had ever seen and these were just puppies and they had to be cute. I stood there and tried some of my dog conversation skills and some of them started walking close to me still afraid with their instincts that had them worried and it must be what their mama told them ‘stay away from strangers and don’t ever talk to them’
I walked back home, went straight to the kitchen and gathered a load of stuff i could give them for a nice dinner. Bread, some chicken, some more stuff, all that i could remember that dogs love. I went back and i took out my camera phone and stood as close as i could, i could feel they were anticipating something with fear though their curiosity was telling them to go for it. I started throwing stuff around their way to scatter them apart and then i started throwing some more food to them that was landing places closer and closer towards me. They all started jumping and hopping like weeks hungry and started falling and twirling around all moving one step closer to me with every bite. And then they were all close to me, around my legs and very slowly i bend my legs and kneeled down somehow reaching closer to them, they were all a little afraid first but then they were all fine.
3 black and 3 slightly light with a pair of dots.

In about 5 minutes all my food was gone. And they started retreating back and then i decided that i needed some more food. I went back brought some more, this time loads more and then the same situation. This time i had it planned but on my way back home and back to their place i saw this one dog [a bitch that i noticed] walking outside my place. I didn’t really gave her any thoughts and walked back to the cute pups and then started feeding them with rain of food. They all walked closer to me and i could almost touch them but then i didn’t wanted to scare them, i took some photos that kinda scared them cause the flash of light kinda made their protective instincts to work out but then they seemed all cool with my awkward photography. After about 10 more minutes all the food was gone and then they were all in the same situation but this time all close to me. I was still taking pictures and just when they looked over on my left, i followed and there she was. Standing, paused, silent, looking at me. Her killer instincts or mother instincts, I can’t tell but she was looking at me. I stood up and she didn’t move. She was one scary fat bitch who was totally staring at me. Then i slowly moved backwards and stood there for a little moment. She didn’t move, then i started walking back to my home and she kept looking at me, she stared until i was gone and then all her pups were around her happy and shit.
After about 10 minutes i just wanted to see what was going on and just as i was about to go out to her block, she was outside my block looking at me but this time

She moved her tail with a smile



Life is beautiful and so is this world that god has created.

I Love u(sweet story)

One more day passed...it is really very hard to handl d situation for that gal..but she is trying to do..she is tryn to do her best..ths day for that gal was so difficult but she got smthng frm her love.. as she said she blvs on God..n her love..ds day again passed wd lots of ups n downs..n she learn many thngs..because life is not constant..it is alwys moving...her letter for her bf defines that experience..

Hey baby..how r u? hope u r fine..n not in a same situation..
because for me ths was really worse day..last nyt i saw a movie..i want to make maself bsy..
but u know wat? that movie was wrst..evrythng in that movie reminds of u..reminds abt our relation..n the worse part of that movie was..situation..wich was same like we have now...
i was crying..crying from the starting till the end..
but good thng was, that i'v learned many thngs from that movie..
if ur love gone..or left u..let it go..because u have many ppl srrnds u who loves u more than that..
u dont wanna smile but u have to do ths for thm..u dnt wnna do nethng but u have to do for thm..
time is moving..changing...u have to update ur self wd tym..
u can't wait all the time for that who left u..specially whn s/he gone(died)..far frm u..
but u know one thng that s/he loves u..loves u like nethng..u have his love..thn y u wrried abt ?
jst do ur thngs..keep ur faith on love..ur strong feeling..
n u gv me these feelings baby..
i have ma promise...n i have to keep it..
i don't let u down..ma love isn't weak..though it is difficult..
but u are the one who teach me wat if evrythng will b easy? there will be no real satisfaction frm that..try to face challnges..bcz i know ma motu is strong...
n baby ur letter was ma hope..thnx for rytn me..it gv me strength more strngth to keep ma promise alive..i was sure abt that..smthng will cm back to me..not in a same way but..it will..n that show ur love n care for me..
em happy frm that...
because i knw ur ma number one..
well let me do ma part..let me show u how strong ma love for u is..because..
i'll w8 for u baby..w8 for u..
I love u Baby..
Take Care a lot..
Gudnyt..
May Almighty increase our Love..n gv us strength
Amen!

story will continue....

I Love U( sweet story)

One day passed..she was waiting whole day for the reply of that letter...but she got nothing...nothing from her boyfriend...still she have blv a strong blv...her Bf will reply soon...she again ryt another letter to her Bf..

baby..its been a day...i'hv not heard ur voice..still i can hear
I love u, em wd u alwys..in ur voice..
baby i know u r also thnking of me...
i have strong feeling of love...a love wch u gv me..
i have hope..wch u'v learned me...
i remember ur words..365 days??
whole day i was thnking abt so many stupid thngs..
thngs frm wch i cud hurt u..ma parents n many more...
but how cud i do ths? i can't do ths...
i will never loose hope..n ma love is not coward...
one day passed n ma soul is crying...its cold here...but ur love make me warm..
baby i know u'll come soon...we'll lough together..we'll cry together...
em waiting for that...w8n..still w8n......
take care a lot ma Love...
gudnyt..
I love u baby..
may Almighty increase our Love..
Amen!

story will continue.......

This is it

Similarity? Can I define? I don't think so
Maybe I'm not that different.

You can hope for the stars falling down and you believe that you can catch them but it's a chance you have to take.

So what is this life?

People answer in simple words, simple words don't work all the time. Some dig deep, some always need answers.

You can call the devil and ask for some wisdom, even he will do his part and wisdom will come clean though it's only demonic

Why can't we do our part?
"You are NEGATIVE
You preach the DEVIL
You don't follow any SPIRIT
Your god is different
You I hate
You I love"
You!

It's always about 'you', why never we look deep inside our own inner self, our own soul could be lost too.
Some say life is only a movie and we are acting in it and this world is nothing but a big studio working with every single move we make, god is a director and i must say.....he is one hell of a director!
But he love surprises every now and then so he leaves some scripts blank, it's our job as an actor to make sure we work it out.

Some make their own story and write their own destiny.

So again, what is life?
Is it something like a puzzle?
Is struggle the only name and way to live cause nothing can ever fulfill the needs of our inner child who always cries for another candy. No fraction of happiness, money, love, peace can ever fulfill the lust for more. Too much is never enough.

Lord works in mysterious ways, when we fall down we are 6 feet under and when we rise we reach for the stars. When it strikes, it always brings company, it's unpredictable and unannounced.
There are times when some sacrifices have to be made to preserve the very memory of a time when a prayer was made, trust was grown, soul was touched, tears were frozen, pain was erased, heart was melted keeping the faith, enlightening the moment. Sometimes somethings touch you and you feel them where it feels the most. "We live and we learn and we teach what we preach" but we can't change what other believe or trust, conclusions are precise and mistakes are part of the game.
God got a pencil and someday he might erase it all
The only difference is, there is no new beginning. You can't always let go

We are different, every one of us, we are unique, we have different rules, laws and everything but still a voice echoes inside every now and then



"YOU ARE LIKE EVERY OTHER GUY"


Trust is a tree but fake without roots, We live and we learn and there is nothing inside, outside, written or taught that can ever define life
This is it, this is life

I love you (short n sweet story)

This is a letter or i shud say feelings of a young gal, who send it to her Boy friend..after her boyfriend said to her that....they need a break....
gal have a strong feeling, she blvs in her Love n on her God so much..her God will help n do miracle to get back her love...
now lets see how it will possible? n how her God will help that gal..
see the faith n believe of that gal for her Love n God... :)

Close ur eyes..take a deep breath...
what u have seen? i Know there is me...only me...
baby all i want u to know is....
I Love u ...
i will love u forever....
u know em in u...bcz The one whom v love r alwys wd us..are alwys in our heart...
n em in ur heart..u can't leave me..u can't forget me....even if u want to..
u can't live alone..becoz em alwys wd u...
em crying now...crying a lot...em feeling so numb...
but these feeling are so strong, ma tears are so strong
u know y?
becoz, i have u...alwys...in ma heart..
remember, u said i'll not leave u...never..ever...
n i did promise u i will too...we make our life beautiful togethr..v make our life melodious wd the muzic of our love...we can do many thngs together...we can do shit ;) together...i remember all thngs(feeling) n i know u too...
i will never let u go..
i will wait for u ....wait for u...n wait for u...
take care...
I love U Baby..
May Almighty increase our Love..
Amen..!!!!!

This story will continue...

23jan, 2010

When u say 'i love u' , it always means something. It's meant for someone, for 'one' perhaps but never it captures the truth. Sometimes u feel it and sometimes u can't, when everyone hears it then it erodes the very crust and the surface above it. This word 'love' is very pure and i believe that it's meant for those who own a god in a shape or form that they see and feel. 'i love u' can't be the line for everyone i think but it is, u love one yet u confuse care with love and then u say to them when u begin to speak, to all of them, same thing but a different moment and then you are blessed with it but deep down inside the very womb of that virgin love is brutally raped by an end to its uniqueness and devotion for one. Emotions can be confusing sometimes.

As i lay in peace for the longest pause, i wonder! Do i own a god?
The answer is NO!

There are some who stare loneliness in the eye and pause for the longest time they can, staring at the light when eyes don't blink and feelings dry inside, world turns dark and then light like ripples cross u. U wake up only to find that you are the most lonesome soul ever as if u were the last person alive.

And then u know that u come alone and u leave alone

And now i know that i want to be alone

FOREVER!

4th Jan, 2010

3:50 am, Sunday

Looking at these dark walls, just closing in, I moved my lazy ass and turned on the projector and played U2 on the big screen. DTS full volume, one wall where the images of so many faces are in hurry, it's bono on the video jukebox with his "if god will send his angels". Outside, the big hostel lights similar to any state penitentiary. Everything is empty and amazing. Music to the ears- perfect, lights-perfect, time-perfect. "If god will send his angels and if god will send a sigh, will everything be alright?"

Another story begins and another night dies.

I'll sleep thinking about what I was reading today, perhaps myself in another body and soul 10 years younger but gone.

"I'm 21 but I'm centuries old, a heart so warm, was born when it was meant to be cold. A story ain't meant to be told. Blowing haze and my blood dark like it was meant to be old"

This man presented a situation where pigs can fly and if they could ……anything will be possible. Anything can happen perhaps. I believe

God exists, mine may be different but yes, he is here ...somewhere......I'm thinking about this one thing I wrote long time back

"I was looking for my heart inside the temple but it was the temple in my heart"

I'm signing out listening to music marking another moment in history and I know now…..we are same, everything is same…….if only I could believe…… but I know now…..everything happens for a reason. “Good Die Young”

Peace out