Prayer

"Abba, entrust my spirit in your refuge

Guide it to the path of righteousness

Abba, Show the light brighter than created

Depart darkness to exile

Abram, your wisdom I lead

Your words I follow, Abimelech

Abba, in your clutches my fingers

Along thy steps I mark mine

Under your shadow I crawl

Bless me thy humbleness

So I treat all with dignity

And from the suffering of others I shall learn

Suffer evil with courage to suffer again

Crumble with hope to rise again

Abba, teach me death so I learn life

Teach me pain so I learn to heal

Teach me hate so I spread love

Abba, let sins be forgiven under thy kingdom

May anger inhales peace under your guidance

Revenge may not exist, Abba, in your mercy

Dominus, spread love like rain

To love we are created, lord

In love we are lost for love is god

Love not to be compared for thy love is greatest

And love of all shall be greater to live forever

And love among all be restored when lost

Along hope, faith and courage under a shadow to protect it

Abba, love that exceeds your love shall be love of god

The creator of all, the fire, the dust

Bless thy created with love

From the light to darkness

Spread as air and water

Give strength to hold against all odds

Conquer devils and let them be conquered by angels

Abba, in one we believe, only one we follow

Let another not deceive us,

Abba, make our hearts stronger than they are

And forever we keep our love

Forever we keep our faith

Forever and ever more

Amen"

                                  

                                    -Fireflies 2010

what a wonderful world

colors of butterflies shine through the sun..
underwater dolphins n baby crabs having fun..
Dancing peacock wondering how beautiful its feathers are..
blue water n green grass talking with the stars..
fragrance of flowers spreading so far..
we Thank God for this world to live,
be a Human live and forgive.. :) :)

Solace

Strings strung music and to its brain I reached

Today to my belief I preached

I retouched the lies I once leached

I reopened the wounds I once sealed

It rained purple yet again but I wonder how I once healed

But if you have learned from this then I’ll be free, finally!

                                                                 -Fireflies

9 Oct, 2010

It has to be a question, what if you can actually challenge and give the best of you....when you can provide enough to replace everything. You know one of those times when you provide, explain, take away something cause it shouldn't be there and you make it a law, and when you break the law, you finally hear about that thing you provided which was never good enough, it’s never enough. You replace something and get replaced by a word.

In another color of situation the truth can be told with a simple but yet so sober wisdom less lie. Everything in this world has a purpose; you cannot replace someone and be someone else. Everyone has a place. No matter how hard you try and how much you’ll give away, good or bad be the result, let god judge and know this, you can’t replace a position, you cannot be a husband and a friend, for those who would live up to this are fools to make themselves committed to obsession thinking that they cannot give away and get their love shared by mixed feelings. They want to have the best and all of it.

Falling in love is perpetual and heart break is mandatory, for many it’s just the rush after the thrill has gone. They call it pain, its heart reckoning but it always keeps that thing they call ‘that feeling’ keep on going on and on and on, no matter how long that takes. You know the road is ahead and that’s exactly where you’re going…….forward!

8, 9 and 10

Behind the beauty of life, there is this ugly truth and then there are lies, truth that we learn to keep naked and lies that we learn to cover and sometimes the opposite. As everyday passes we have a moment that flows to the last flashy combination of our life when these moments actually flash around you and among them there are the better ones that are most vivid. If I count mine, I would remember when I first got high, my first time I was asked out by a girl and then my first kiss which was almost perfect, first time I puked on my birthday party, when I turned 21 all alone, august 19^th or October the 20^th, the first time it rained as I can remember or matter of fact the last time it rained, when I first played guitar for someone and among them many that can’t be defined or compared.

We are born naked and I believe that whatever we do is nude. Sooner or later the very blanket that we are under becomes our coffin and life is a dusted spirit in a blink of an eye, resentment is only a reason and anger supports it or better than anger there is hate that overpowers it. You can always hear the greatest that ever lived talk about peace and its power but there are times when desperation takes over everything. There is a limit and then there are consequences. I often feel that I wanna write a book about one of my close friends and I often feel as if he is telling me everything for one reason or if I’m asking it for another. I feel his life is worth talking about but the same can be said for every story. I’m driven by reasons and not outcomes.

You let go something and something else comes to you, I tell you that I have understood in my life so far that the things that are the hardest to let go are always taken away from you, you never let them go but you are always deceived. But always think it thru before doing the worse, before making that one worst decision of your life that would indeed change it all.

I know myself enough to say that I have understood parts of me that are sane and some that are indeed insane but yes there is still a long road to go and a lot to know and if I do it all over again, I would only choose this life.